my LIFE,is full of everything! :D

Sunday, November 15, 2009
Beautiful Song.

NICE SONG. ENJOY(:

Credits to Shawn Siau for letting me listen to it!

Chester See widget by 6L &

7:10 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Saturday, November 14, 2009
♥♥♥♥♥♥

♥

I'm not at home now.

But I love being with my love.

She makes me feel safe and cosy in this cold weather (:

I love you honey!

Ps. She's my cousin. hahahahah!

I wanna feel your warmth against me. =X

11:50 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Insecurity.

Is just being friends not good enough?

We'll never know, because they'll never show.

It was a brand new experience and feeling there.

And it's making me feel...

Weird.

1:19 AM, procrastination & i thought about.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

So what am I supposed to do now?

ARRRHHHHHHHH GAHHHHHHHHH RAHHHHHHH.

I really have no idea.

It's like, this semester hasn't been as good as I thought it would be. I need to catch up on my work. I need to catch up on my sleep. I need to get a stable income SOON. I need to control what I think sometimes. It's making myself confused.

But on second thoughts. There are some things that help cover up the bad parts (:

Second Chance - Faber Drive

I found the phone

I must?ve missed your message

You got it wrong, It wasn?t what your friend said.

I can tell by your tone, I?ve taken it too far again.

Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

Your friends are telling you, You gotta move on.

Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.

You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.

I don?t know why i ever waited to say.

Cuz I?m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should?ve let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give ,I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

I should've known, took you and I for granted

Gotta let you know, I was never underhanded.

Tell by your tone, I?ve taken it too far again.

Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.

Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.

You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.

I don?t know why i ever waited to say.

Cuz I?m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should?ve let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.

I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

What you give is always what you get.

There's so much I haven't given yet. (or theres so much i havent given you)

it seems so different with(out) a second chance.

Just when I thought I'd gone and fixed it all again.

My friends are telling me they saw you with someone.

Just when I thought I'd gone and wrecked it all again.

You turned around so I could tell you what took so long.

I don?t know why I ever waited to say.

Cuz I?m just dying just to see you again .

Instead of holding you, I was holding out.

I should?ve let you in, but I let you down.

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

My last mistake, putting my friends first.

I tried to laugh it off but I made things worse.

You were the first to give I was the first to ask.

Now I?m in second place to get a second chance.

Instead of holding you, I was holding out? (second chance)

I should?ve let you in, but I let you down (second chance)

You were the first to give, I was the first to ask? (second chance)

Now I?m in second place, to get a second chance.

10:52 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

暗号

我想要的 想做的 

你比誰都了
你想說的 想給的 

我全都知道 
未接來電 沒留言 

一定是你孤單的想念 
任何人都 猜不到 

這是我們的暗號 

他們猜 隨便猜 不重要 
連上彼此的訊號 才有個依靠
有太多人太多事 

夾在我們之間咆哮
雜訊太多訊號弱 

就連風吹都要干擾
可是你不想 

一直走在黑暗地下道
想吹風 想自由 

想要一起手牽手
去看海 繞世界流浪

我害怕你心碎沒人幫你擦眼 
別管那是非 

只要我們感覺對

我害怕你心碎沒人幫你擦眼梡

別離開身邊 

擁有你我的世界才能完美

你說你想逃開鬆手 

愛太累 

愛得不自由 
因為我給不起最簡單的承諾 
你停止收訊號 

我開始搜尋不到 
到底有誰知道 

是幾點鐘方向 

你才椰洧鼒t號 

12:18 AM, procrastination & i thought about.

Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Is it really so?

On the first day, God created the dog and said:

'Sit all day by the door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. For this, I will give you a life span of twenty years.'

The dog said: 'That's a long time to be barking. How about only ten years and I'll give you back the other ten?'

So God agreed.

On the second day, God created the monkey and said:

'Entertain people, do tricks, and make them laugh. For this, I'll give you a twenty-year life span.'

The monkey said: 'Monkey tricks for twenty years? That's a pretty long time to perform. How about I give you back ten like the Dog did?'

And God agreed.
On the third day, God created the cow and said:
'You must go into the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer's family. For this, I will give you a life span of sixty years.'

The cow said: 'That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for sixty years.. How about twenty and I'll give back the other forty?'

And God agreed again.

On the fourth day, God created humans and said:

'Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. For this, I'll give you twenty years.'

But the human said: 'Only twenty years? Could you possibly give me my twenty, the forty the cow gave back, the ten the monkey gave back, and the ten the dog gave back; that makes eighty, okay?'

'Okay,' said God, 'You asked for it'

So that is why for our first twenty years we eat, sleep, play and enjoy ourselves. For the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family.. For the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren.. And for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Life has now been explained to you.

There is no need to thank me for this valuable information. I'm doing it as a public service.

9:40 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

I think, I'm making myself more stupid by thinking more. ):

I felt the difference. From you and you. Yeah.

1:04 AM, procrastination & i thought about.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

HAHAHAHAHHAH.

THIS IS SUPER HILARIOUS. :D

4:10 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Friday, November 06, 2009

"How tired I am of this unbearable distance between us.

How I long, for the toll of recess bell.

Have you forgotten me; grown mindless of me?

Tell me I am not writing into an abyss - or that is what will become, of my heart."

This video's sweet. Especially what was written on the note. Touching.

Was shown during Child Lit lecture. & it's been kind of in my mind recently.

So I decided to post it up, to share (:

11:32 AM, procrastination & i thought about.

YES LAPPY'S BACK IN ACTION.

WHICH MEANS I'VE GOT WORK TO RUSH,THINGS TO DOWNLOAD AND ASSIGNMENTS TO BE HANDED UP ASAP.

12:45 AM, procrastination & i thought about.

Wednesday, November 04, 2009

Weird things happens at weird times and I'm weirdly affected by it.

Things just DOESN'T seems to make sense nowadays.

When we come to this age. We're exposed to many things. So it ain't a surprise I guess.

Child Literature. It's a fun topic, but it can't be helped to be thought as boring when the one teaching it, is boring. =X

Speech lesson. The one motivation for me to wake up early in the morning. I think many of T04 thinks that way too. (:
It's just.....so US. Love my class to the max. I really do (x
Thanks for being there for me guys! oooops. GIRLS. and a DUDE. heehee.

IT lessons. So not looking forward. But there's photoshop this sessions. So. OUH WELL.
Bearing with it for the time being.

Bringing my lappy for servicing tomorrow straight after lessons with Gum. Really cannot take the torturous life without it now, because half the Sem's module requires the use of lappy.
And time to treat ourselves with nice FOOD on the way to Funan and back. (:

Storytelling materials due on friday, but I have yet to complete20%. wish me luck. There're tons to be completed.

Alright. I'm heading off to bed now. Am feeling tired VERY EARLY at unusual times lately. Unhealthy girl. tsktsk.

I am going to have to try to stop posting two different things and decide where to post my future entries.
Yes I've realized that I have been posting more frequently than usual.I can go up to 3 posts in one day. Sheesh. NOT A GOOD THING.

I really don't know about this feeling now. I'm really confused. Is this what we really face at times like that? =(
Someone, enlighten me please.

11:14 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Tuesday, November 03, 2009
HMMM...

Currently,im all alone at cheers.waiting for jeanne& the rest to come.SLOW PEOPLE!!!!hahaha.

Okay.. So actually now, I'm feeling kind of IRRITATED by some people's inconsiderate actions. Like if you all are not supposed to do say or ask anything,THEN DON'T DO IT. Why must you make life difficult for others and yourself,when everyone already has enough on our minds alreadyy?!

You all obviously know that I don't like to be entangled in these things, so STOP TRYING to pull me into it!!! URGH.

& to you.
When you've made promise, keep to it,okay?it's not good to lose other's trust in you because of the promise broken.

New Windows 7: Find the right PC for you. Learn more.

12:04 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Monday, November 02, 2009

If you take a step back and look at the world around you, things may seem better than you thought, or maybe you may even spot the tiniest of details you missed in the past that you ought to treasure.

Well, that was what i thought after like so long of thinking these few days. Like really, people(including me) tend to take some things for granted in our lives. Only when they realize its too late then they start to regret.

So that's why, I don't regret stopping my hasty pace and look at things slowly and think carefully. Because it really helped me- to gain some of my stability back and also some new insights on many things (:

And finally. I hate to burst your speech bubbles, but I cannot stand it anymore.
DON'T always think you are that great- because you are not. We're putting up with you simply because we still think that you can change. Don't make us dislike you. ):

11:15 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Sunday, November 01, 2009

WELL WELL WELL.
I'm back from Malaysia and am a satisfied girl! =D
The day started like at 730am and i reached home about almost 1am in the morning. Super shagged i tell you.
The time was well spent(though very tiring), and the money tooooooo.
Bought slippers, cardigans presents and also alot of other things.
BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY-
I had feasts of SUPER DELICIOUS FOOD and my all time favourite STARBUCKS! (:
Shall post the pictures later using Fred's lappy, if he brought it along.

I missed out the reLAC day at sentosa, and by looking at the facebook picture and videos, should be quite fun! ): AND I SAW THE FLASHMOB VIDEO THEY DID AT VIVO. IMBA I TELL YOUUUUU. standing in a straight line without talking and moving for a period of time and attracting alot of attention! HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA.

Plus, the halloween celebrations at CHC, looks super fun toooooo :D All nicely dressed up!

WELL DONE EVERYONE! (:

Yesterday was a tiring day for everyone no doubt(includng me) BUT I KNOW WE ALL HAD FUN!

1:03 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

OUH SHIT SHITSHIT SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT
I HATE THE FUCKING VIRUS. REBOOT THE COMPUTER AND GET IT FUCKING OVER WITH. OMGOMG. I DON'T FEEL LIKE GOING TO SCHOOL TOMORROW.

10:11 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

RAH. OMG I AM SUPER SUPER TIRED RIGHT NOW. ):
Headache's coming up. full day lesson today.
I need to sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep.
DIE DIE DIE.

2:35 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Actually maybe you didn't know the real them yet? Or you haven got to understand your coping abilities yet. O:

OUH WELL, Random. Just some thoughts after talking to some people.

Suddenly have the urge to blog about a certain topic. But it's kinda sensitive to some, so I think. I'll just spit out my thoughts at another place.(:

Short update for today.
LONG TIRING DAY.
Lessons starts at 9am today, and end at 4pm. NOT REALLY USED TO IT.
But SPSS IS FUN. Ouh and I volunteered to be a class rep. Shove some responsibility&initiative to keep me awake and working hard.Child Lit is.....er. killing my brain cells.
BDD WAS FUN =D After duty lepaked at the refreshment area and talked crap. really LOL. that Val. RETARDED ONLY :P
But tiring ehs. Totally conked out on the bus on the way home. There's duty again tomorrow. Last day, I'm doing the last shift. Hope it'll keep me busy. But then again. THERE'S WAWA!!!! HEEHEEHEEHEE (K) Sad leiyi couldnt do it. but nehmind~

YEAH OGAY ITS 12AM NOW. HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DADDYYYYYYYYY!
GET READY TO FEAST TWO DAYS LATER. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH (:

Ogay. I got to go. Else i can sleep thru whole of tomorrow. TSK.

It's really getting easier to let go now.....

10:49 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

CRANKY.
VERY CRANKY.
SUPERBLY CRANKY.

YOU KNOW WHAT. TODAY AIN'T A GOOD DAY IN WHOLE, I DON'T KNOW WHY.
and it's not only me feeling this way. RAH.

I ate LORMAI KAI and ICE TEA for lunch+ bfast at 130pm.
Was still full of energy and stuffs. Until about 4pm.
By 6pm.
I have totally no strength and then whole body felt damn weak.
Tired and hungry.
Brain didn't function AT ALL, legs were wobbly when on the steps or walking.
Was holding on to my lappy, suddenly, it just slipped.
My fingers just couldn't grasp anything at all.
And hence, 'BAM' it goes to the floor. And there went my heart and patience with myself.
Hands were fucking trembling like nobody's business.
VERY UNLIKE MY USUAL SELF.

I don't know what came over me. Felt like I could collapse any moment, anywhere.
Quite freaked out by myself. big shit.
And have been feeling quite cranky inside. RAWR.

But I still enjoyed my time with that few BBs I miss so much.

I miss the jokes.
I miss the meals together.
I miss the laughter we had, laughing at everything and anything we can.
I miss waiting for one another after school.
I miss the HTHT WITH THEM.
I miss the late nights with them.
I miss the online mass conversations where we could talk about any shit without caring what other thinks.
I miss every single one of them.
I just miss hanging out with them.
They play an important part of my Poly life, and I don't want them to just disappear.
I want THEM to be part of my future and thereafter too.

I don't wana lose any friends. No more pain I can take.

12:38 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

2 more day to daddy's birthday!
But haven gotten him a present yet. DANG.

LUNCH WAS HECTIC BUT FUNNYYYYY =D should have more of these 'gatherings' spam MKP!

WAHAHAHAH. And i think, i will grow shorter kay. TSK. I dun wana be as short as the 'tall' girl! ):
OKAY i gotta concentrate on DPL now. BYEEEE.

12:38 PM, procrastination & i thought about.

Monday, October 26, 2009

OUH HOW I HATE MYSELF.
HOW I HATE HAVING CARDS ON ME NOW.
HOW I HATE HAVING TO DO THE CARD ONCE MORE.
HOW I HATE LOSING OTHER PEOPLE'S STUFF.
HOW I HATE LOSING MY MONEY TOO.

I REALLY HATE MYSELF TO THE MAX.
I SUCK AT KEEPING THIS. AND THIS REALLY PISSES ME OFF. I SHALL SWEAR NOT TO BRING OUT MORE THAN TWO CARDS ON ME WHERE EVER I GO NOW.

On a lighter note. There's turtles lunch tomorrow! AND NOW BECAME LAC GATHERING. O:
HOW! oh em geeee.

11:23 PM, procrastination & i thought about.